Life Update

Hello to whomever sees this. It's been 8 years since I last wrote here. Life is completely different from that point in time. I had a baby, finished grad school, moved into a job which I went to grad school for, experience a global pandemic and had another baby during that pandemic, experienced the loss of my grandmother and my father, bought a house in a different city that does not contain my immediate family support while having a child on the spectrum. 

At one point in time, reading came as easy as breathing for me but now, it just trying to find a little moment in time for myself and normally reading is something I forced myself to do. And while that sounds bad, becoming a mom has taken so much energy that most times it's all I can do to make it to my own bed and zone out while scrolling on social media. 

However, I've been making more of an effort in reading, in particular with physical books, since ebooks tends to distract me since I would be on my phone. It also helps that my oldest boy, who's 6 years old, now likes to sit next to me while he read his own book. Did I somehow create a reader while struggling to read myself? I don't know but I'm not going to think about it too long. 

With forcing myself to read more, it brought me back to this space. This little old blog of mine. I had to bring it back to the free blogspot version as I couldn't keep paying for the .com version if I wasn't using it. And I'm glad I kept it. All those reviews, features, and discussions is a reminder of what was happening at that point in time and my thoughts and likes and it's something that I currently need. 

I've lost myself in motherhood and in life, that while I'm no longer the person I was during the 2012-2017 period, I still see pieces of that person that is still here in some shape or form. I'm trying to find a way to the girl that I was and the woman I am now and bring them together somehow. I'm not sure how I will use this space again, but I do know I miss talking about the books I'm currently reading, as well as trying to find something to watch in all these streaming services, and maybe vent and worry about the difficulties of raising a little nonverbal, autistic boy. 

How are YOU? What have you been up to? 

I guess I'll see you guys later.